a picture of my sweet team after church one day 🙂
Firstly, how could I ever sum up all the ways my life has changed since coming on the World Race? It’s not that it’s even the specific World Race institution that has effected these changes: this program has simply been a conduit for change; a petri dish for spiritual growth; a place that has helped push me towards the relationship with God that I desired to have, but couldn’t bring myself to follow through with on my own.
Instead, I want to share one specific way the Lord has changed my life through the World Race.
Prior to starting the World Race Gap Year, I had the desire to pursue God wholly, but I was shackled by fear of judgment and fear of discomfort. I’d gotten into a routine of reading my Bible and just breaking the tip of the iceberg when it came to conversing with Holy Spirit. Yes, I’d seen a slow gradual change throughout my walk with Him, transforming me into the person I was at that point. However, that change didn’t truly expand past the perimeters of my own life and the lives of my family.
On the one hand, I felt good that I was pursuing God by regularly reading my Bible and sitting in His presence. I had a nice routine down, and I truly treasured the time I spent with Him. On the other hand, I felt the beginning of a crippling conviction that I was living a double life – one where I didn’t explicitly deny God in my words or actions, but I also didn’t explicitly live out my faith either. I had become so focused on pleasing other people that I’d let my internal tendency toward anxiety turn into a raging fear of expressing any difference of opinion.
The World Race became the catalyst I needed in order to push me towards the next steps in my faith. I do believe that the Lord would have fully grabbed hold of me sooner or later, even if I hadn’t said yes to this opportunity, but because of my yes, I was able to jump feet first into an amount of growth that I truly could not have imagined experiencing.
Through this program, I experienced enough outward encouragement to propel my inward desire forward, and I’ve learned more fully how much my walk with God is truly a relationship and not a routine. Because of that relationship, God has truly revamped and revitalized my life in ways I would never have expected. (Check out this blog to see a little bit of how God changed the course of my future).
Yes, I still have hard days and hard seasons. In fact, I’m going through a hard season right now. However, I have a greater awareness and knowledge of the Person that will always walk alongside me, through every season. And even when my feelings and emotions don’t line up with what I know to be true, I can still rest confidently in His presence.
Colossians 2:6-7 says, “6 And now, just as you accepted Christ Jesus as your Lord, you must continue to follow him. 7 Let your roots grow down into him, and let your lives be built on him. Then your faith will grow strong in the truth you were taught, and you will overflow with thankfulness.”
Ultimately, the World Race doesn’t have to be the tool that empowers you on your walk with Christ. But it can be. And I think the only way you won’t grow on this journey is if you don’t want to.
Thanks to God, I’ve had this incredible opportunity to not only grow in my own relationship with God, but to walk alongside other young adults my age in their faith journeys, to see the body of Christ working like He intends it to, to experience a variety of different ministries, to learn how to form godly relationships, and to surrender everything to Christ. And I know there’s more than that, too.
Lastly, I want to say a huge thank you to God for bringing me to this place. Thank you to all of the generous people who have so kindly stepped out in faith to help me get to where I am now. Thank you to my parents for supporting me in following wherever God leads me. And thank you to C Squad, for walking alongside me in this journey. I love you all.
God used the World Race to change my life. And He could use it to change your life, too.
So proud of you! I really enjoy seeing your posts about you traveling and experiencing God. You are such an encouragement and I am so glad I got to meet you at LU’s CFAW. Hopefully see you again someday!
Shan, this is a huge encouragement to read! this part you wrote at the beginning is it! “this program has simply been a conduit for change; a petri dish for spiritual growth; a place that has helped push me towards the relationship with God that I desired to have, but couldn’t bring myself to follow through with on my own.” I’m so thankful the WR was a catalyst for you, but EVEN MORE THANKFUL for God who is always faithful to set captives free.
It’s so cool to see how much the WR has impacted you Shanan! I love you so much! It’s nearly unbelievable that you’re coming home so soon! I’m so glad that you went out of your comfort zone to go on the WR gap year. These blogs have been super encouraging to me on my walk, it’s so cool to see what’s on your mind. Thank you so much!
– Genna
SO GOOD! I’m so glad you jumped with both feet into this crazy adventure with the World Race but mostly, with God. Thank you for sharing – I’m sure your words ring true for many!