As I write this post, I’m procrastinating studying for my last two finals. It’s honestly shocking to say that to myself. I’m still in a little disbelief! This Sunday (December 15!!) I’m walking for my graduation with my associate’s degree! It’s unreal. Since I’ve been dual-enrolled, part of me has always felt like I’m not a “real” college student, even though I know that’s not true. Graduation is an overwhelming feeling, and yet an exciting one. I actually made it this far, and I have to come to terms with the fact that my identity is no longer a “student.” Sure, I will keep learning (and plan to do some self-study over the next semester), but I can’t label myself a college student anymore. I plan to attend a university for my bachelor’s degree after my gap year, but that’s still a long way off! It’s a little scary to realize. But you know what? It’s okay. The world isn’t going to collapse now that I’m not sitting in a classroom a few days each week.
In fact, I hope to make the most of the time I’ll have. It’s the start of a new phase in my life. I start my new job for real on the day after graduation, and that’s a whole new step by itself! I have to actually begin thinking of adult stuff now, like what college I want to go to and ways to raise money and pack for the race. It’s time for me to crack down on fundraising, and knock some (okay, a lot) of stuff off my perpetually-increasing to-do list. And lest I forget, it’s a time where I need to remember (more than ever) to draw close to the one who holds my whole life in His hands.
And so, as I look forward from this milestone, I pray that I will remember the important things in life. That I will take this opportunity as a springboard to move forward, and not get bogged down in the end of an era. That I would not forget who has ultimate control, despite the many decisions that have to be made. Change is inevitable. Truly, I can only hold on for the ride as Jesus takes me farther than I could ever have imagined. My grip may be weak but I know the one whose strength sustains me.
Peace be with you.
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